I think we got one tugging!

Well after much fishing for over two months and coming up with missing bait and no fish I think we finally have one tugging at our line.

This last week we took are good teacher and friend Joseph Mabor with us to Cattle camp. There has been one cattle keeper who was very serious about our teaching of God’s word and always came to our teaching, his name is Mapol. I told Peter and Joseph to setup a separate time with him to disciple him and teach him the word one on one. So when we got there immediately Joseph starts to disciple and teach Mapol one on one (Mapol on the left and Joseph on the right) . They even went into the night hours as Joseph continued teaching him.

It was a great blessing to see it, I really felt ready to go home I feel complete a lot of the time out here, and we also got to do our open wide teachings to all who wanted hear at the cattle camp, despite having to leave are area of teaching because some cattle keepers wanted to play drums and dance. But that’s Ok God’s word got out anyway.

Please pray for Mapol as he deices to make one the greatest decisions in his life, that his ears and eyes be open the teachings and he takes them in to become a follower of Christ!

Pray for Joseph that he may have time to come to the cattle camp with us again, as he is the headmaster if the Baptist school and is very busy.

Please pray for Peter as he is taking on a new mission to the cattle camp. That he gains a level of maturity to bring God’s word to the camp and keeps the passion to serve God in the cattle camp. That he does not get sluggish, Justin and I find Peter intimidated at the cattle camp sometimes, so God shows him the way to take on this mission soon on his own, as I will be leaving soon.

Justin and myself as we continue to disciple Peter in how to be a servant of God to the cattle camps on his own.

Thank you for your prayers

Jermaine

 

 

The Lord Prevails II

The next week we went to cattle camp another problem accrued! But I am not even going to get into that. So when we got there we set up and once again we had only two days. But it started raining and we could not do anything. So that day went away. Sunday came and we had a great church service! Justin spoke on Ezekiel and the vision of the dry bones. They really responded well. They said “we are like the dried bones, we have no one controlling us, but even the fish are better, the fish have water to control them but we are dry”. A lot of them that day said they want to follow Jesus and do right by God. That is great but I means nothing if they don’t do it! So I had Malual get with the main guy who always response to God’s word well, his name is Mapul. Mapul and Justin have a good relationship. I told them that Malual will start training to disciple anyone who wants it. I asked Mapul would he want to do that he said I am ready including another young man. I told them that “Yeah well the last people who came and said their ready to get training we don’t even see them!” I explain to them that the work of God is a sacrifice and there will always be something to stop them from coming. They agreed and said they would come.

 

Pray for these young men, Mapul and the others who want learn more of God’s word.

 Let all distractions be put down so they can come see us when we are there.

Pray that these are the right men God chose and they are not in this for selfish reasons.

Pray for me as I sit down with Peter Malual to form a type of training for them to learn more about God’s word so that Peter can begin his discipleship with them through Jesus Christ our Lord and savior.

Please pray for Peter Malual, as has just got a new job as a missionary to the cattle camps, at this time attending Bible school when he has never been in a school setting ever, and still taking care of his widowed mother and his crops.

God has really put a lot on him but just pray that he stay strong through all of this and allow God to continue to use him, providing him with wisdom to get through school and begin discipleships with in the cattle camps.

Thank you for your prayers!

His slave…

 

The Lord Prevails

It has been to the cattle camp twice now since the Nehemiah team left and has been nothing but a success. God is so great He always thrives around us. But trouble still comes are way and many struggles. Like the first week, we were ready to go back to cattle camp and on are way there just oust side of the town we would turn into the bush to get there the bolt and bushing to the shock of the truck completely fell off!

It did not break or crack off it just loosely fell off, then I here click clanck! I immediately stop.

So now we are left to have to go all the way to Rumbek were we know they will have the parts to fix it. Everything went well, and we got the car fixed and went straight to the cattle camp the next day. I was a little worried about teaching because we missed one day and now only had two days there. But God always prevails. When got there the young men flocked to are truck and it was not long before we got to teach God’s word, thank you Jesus!

 Peter Malual was on firer! We talked about purity and holiness and Malual spoke to them about Joseph fleeing from woman. Justin and I also got to teach that day. They really responded well and so well in fact they came back that night asking to here more of God’s word. As so as they asked Malual step right up with no hesitation! “OK I think I have this one.” Malual says. Seeing makes me so happy, love my best friend who is a strong man of God.

The next day we also got to have church and sang praise songs to God! Malual told them the story of Amman and Tamar. It was a good time, all praise to God!

Masochist for Christ

I lay at night in our tent within the cattle camp, as the wind is getting ready to take off our rain cover to our screen roof tent. The raindrops hit hard on the tent, the lighting flashes and the thunder cracks and pounds. I sleep in my clothes always but this time with my hoody and I pull it over my face. I pray. “Lord please don’t let our rain cover fly off.” Then I feel drops of water come down on my cover and my head I look up and the rain cover is still there, just some rain that is blown in, it is a hard storm.

I smile as Justin, Malual, and I all suffer in this thunderstorm, as none of us are asleep. I feel happy, I feel great, I feel closest to God at times like these. I think I have learned to love my suffering for God. Think about it, when all is wrong in your life but the reason is because you are serving the one true God who created this earth! I love it! Hurt me, burn me, cut me, soak me in this tent, all just to give glory to God even if that is just for one Church service to Him in the cattle camp, it was all worth it! I smile at the barrel of an Aka, I laugh that I get to praise God for the treats and strikes. There is masochism in my work for God to feel close, to feel right.

O crap now I have to pee! O well I will just hold it, I don’t feel like getting up and peeing in this rain.

 

O no….I feel a great fear come upon me as I lay there giving God praise for my suffering. Bang! An Aka fires, but that is not were my fear is coming from, it comes from with in me. I realize this journey this adventure in Sudan will end soon. Then I go back to America and do what!?

My whole enjoyment of suffering for God will be gone! I thrive on my sufferings for Christ each day out here, how will I do that at home!? There is no suffering for me in my sweet little American home! I have everything I need there! Here in Sudan I depend on God for every single thing in my life. I wake up and do the service to God and go at it until there is nothing more I can do, then done, I rest then I get up and do it all over again! That is the life! What more do I need? To only constantly depend on God for everything, and knowing your in the right place from your work and the suffering you go through. Where will I find this pleasure at home!?

When the truck breaks down in the middle of nowhere on the road who do I call, God! I pray that no one will rob me I pray that we get there safely and I suffer and am made weak for him, and it is the greatest feeling ever, I can’t even describe with words! But in the States who do I call, AAA! Hop on the cell and call a homie up!

Now I know you say o well that’s God helping you out in the States, but no! It’s at a different level I can’t explain nor can I go back to! I just cannot go back to that low sight of faith and dependency of God that I was! Ezekiel, I hate the person I was!

God told the Israelites over and over put you trust and strength in me, why, because trust and dependency is love, is relationship. In the New Testament we see that suffering for Christ is held as an honor! This is something to brag about! Now how will I continue this in the States!? I need to continue to serve Him so when I suffer it is nothing but great pleasure in my heart; I am a masochist for Christ! O lord and if I don’t continue to serve you back home or in the future like I do here I think I will go crazy! When things go wrong in the States how will I enjoy the suffering? It’s not for Christ, No! It is to pay a bill or look for a job, all things to serve my selfish self; I don’t want to do that! I don’t give a damn about my self! I need to serve God and Him only that is what we are supposed to do!  God is my pimp and I am his hoe, who relies on him for everything! I am like an soldier who kills in the war all day, then suddenly they just send me home, what now?!

 

 But I can just see my self falling right back in to doing nothing for God! O the thought of it makes me vomit!

 

 To feel this close to the Lord is so indescribable, but I do know it is like the sweetest drug that I cannot put down!

 

And now I go back home to what?! To people who will try to hold me to a high title because I have been out here for just two years, when really it is not an high title at all! It is the low title the lowest of the low! Who will be first will be last! I am His slave His nothing; this is just what I suppose to do anyway!

Then I go back to the woman I love and will marry but will she even know me? I think I will aggravate her more then anything with my obsession with suffering for Christ!

I can’t hold my pee anymore, I just wip it out and pee through the zipper of the tent outside.

I don’t know God, all I’m saying is please don’t for get your slave, your dog who eats from your servants crumbs. Lord I long to keep this feeling I have each day out here with you and now I am so scared that I might lose it. Please give me something Lord Please. I need to continue to serve you where ever I am in my life, that is all I ask, let me continue to be your slave….

  

We are like the Nineveh

I for got to share these testimonies.

When the Nehemiah was here in the cattle camp just before the camp moved to another site, something great happened in our teaching that God let us be apart of.

One day:

Justin first taught on the story of Jonah and here is where my testimony takes place. After he got done telling the story and explaining the message they said “ Yeah that story is a very good story. You see we cattle keepers are like the Nineveh. We are bad people too and you can ask even a Dinka man to come with you and they will refuse because they will say we are bad and no one wants to come teach us. But you all came today and stay here with us and we learn many things about God.”

 

Justin and I stood next to each other praising God! Then the rest of the team including Peter told the rest of their stories on forgiveness. Peter taught on the women caught in adultery. After all the lessons and stories were told the young men said “You see now that we have heard this, we now know God loves bad people like us. And now today have learn how to repent.”

Peter then explain more on this and talk with them more and more of God’s word.

But I myself was jumping for joy and giving God the praise for what just happen! They learned how to repent! God loves bad people! Man what a quote! I thought about it and God does love bad people! Praise God.

Testimony!

Please pray the cattle keepers and the Lords work He is doing out here! That they really take His word in and learn to love God and change their life and actions.

Pray for us as well that we are used by God and do nothing to keep us from that, we stay on the right track and make the right decisions.

Thank you, His slave.

 

Another Testimony:

Early in the morning there was no sun and very cloudy basically on the verge of rain. When it rains here there is no teaching or anything. All your plans are canceled if there is site of rain coming or rain has come. So that is what our morning for teaching looked like. But we all decided to keep going forward and see what God will do. So Justin, Peter, and I went around the cattle camp inviting all the people of cattle camp and the young men as well. Things look dim for our teaching and there was a lot of doubt but we kept going. We went to this large group of young guys sitting on their gor nhom (a mound of where the cattle keepers live, like their home). We ask them to come for teaching and they look up and it is obvious to see that rain is coming. They say “the rain is coming you know”. Then I say “yeah but if we just teach for maybe one hour before it comes, and if it starts to rain then we will stop”. They all stare at us like we are crazy for asking them and as if they are not going anywhere but staying by their dung fire. There is an awkward silence for a while and then suddenly one of them says “OK lets go.” I was like wow! OK lets go! Thank you God! Then they all got up and came to our tent and we started teaching right away. The rain clouds circled around us ready to pour out. I just kept praying O Lord just hold back this rain just until we get done teaching your Word. We had a large group of young men all around listening to the word of God. I was just on an high but I was still praying to God let us get this teaching done please. There was some drizzle but soon enough we finished all of our teachings we had that day as the clouds literally surrounded us and we taught under the one part of the sky that had no clouds. It was really kind of weird and in my mind I am quick to say it was divine.

I kid you not, that as soon as we stop teaching the rain did not come, we were able to go get water first driving on dry land through the bush instead of mud where we might have got stuck. And we did not have much water either and when it rains I don’t like to go get water but God worked it out! So as soon as we got back from getting water the skies poured!

Testimony! Thank you my God for taking care of us and letting us be apart of your great work!

 

 

Seeing the most beautiful thing in Dinka Land!

 I saw the most beautiful thing here in Dinka land.

 

It was a Sunday at the Widows church.

 I was kinda down because we had left cattle camp when they moved and we went and found where they are but they where all busy working and setting up there settlements in the camp. So there was no time for teaching. So the team said their good bys and we left to go back to Akot.

I was down because I know there are a lot of people still there in the camp who need the word of God, and I have seen to much death to just leave and sit around when I know they need it. I don’t like that feeling. We need to keep going.

But we could not get them to come and sit down for any of our teaching because eof the their work. So we talk to the leader and he said it is Ok to come back because we are very busy now. I was the only one not for leaving as I always am. But we left so the Nehemiah teams will have time to say good by to the people in Akot, as their time was coming to a end here in Dinka land.

 

So the next day, Sunday we went to the Widows Church. We had church and this is where I saw it. Something that I will never forget and will hold in my heart and memory forever.

 

After Peter told his story and message to the church at the end of the service a older man, a soldier stood up in the middle of the church and said “I have come to church today to confess my sins to God and repent what I have done. I was going to the witch doctor and keeping idols in my home and then I began to do bad things. I beat my wife and choked her if she had not bit me I might have killed her. I destroyed this ladies house (she was sitting in the church) and burned it lighting it on fire. I come today to turn away from these bad things and I wan to follow God only and I would like you to come with me to my house and burn my idols.”

 

I was astonished! Those words were music to my ears, sweet sounds of joy to my spirit, my heart flourished in praises to God.

Then the whole church walk to his house and he brought out his idols and we all and the church got a piece of grass or hay and burned the idol together!

 

We all sang praises to God as we watched the idol burn in the fire.

It was he most beautiful thing I have ever seen in Dinka land since I been here.

Praise God!

It reminded me that this part is finish for me. The Dinka have their church going by their own means and for me to stay would only handicap the ministry. As hard as it is to say I think I am ready to go now. Not to say everything is perfect but the walk with God I see everyday in these churches now.

My only need I look to is the cattle camps to the un-reached there but that is where Peter and the other local pastors can take over now, just with our small support.

So…

 

Thank my God to let me see. It was so beautiful. I held back my tears of joy and I just praised Him. It was no other feeling I can describe; maybe heaven will feel like this. Thank you.

Pray for this man and his new walk with God.

Thank you.

 

When to laugh and not to laugh

We came back again to the same cattle camp teaching the Word of God. The Nehemiah teams are building great relationships everything is going well.

The leader of the camp is our friend and we hang out with him and others all the time. We even have dance parties with them! We really love them they are all our friends.

The three men who volunteered to be trained in the word of God, don’t come to our teachings and are always gone.

But like Mark said “That is up to the Holy Spirit to chose a leader out there”. So we just keep teaching the word of God.

I am trying to push Peter to disciple some of them himself but it takes time.

Peter is so great, we have him teach by himself in straight Dinka language and they all listen to him and quiet. When we teach their laughing and talking sometimes.

Its gotta be the locals! Peter is amazing and God is using us to make good progress with them. We trying to be the planters out here, So please pray for our continued ministry out here in the cattle camps.

Jermaine

 

I wake up to Ak shot… Bang! I don’t jump, neither am I scared, but I just lay their. I know right away it is just another cattle camp arriving and they love to announce it by the crying of an Ak-47. I lift up my head to see them through my tent, I see a huge Sudanese Flag and big bulls caring milk cans. A large amount of new cattle keepers are coming in are camp. “You see I told you” I tell others, as I tell them everything is cool so they don’t freak out and I lay my head back down to get some sleep.

 

Bang! Another shot…Bang! Another shot. Ak-47 is a song to my ears.

 

Peter says “O no, Fighting take place!”

I turn over to look at him and Peter is getting up and looking out into the distances. So I look where he is looking and I see a crowed of people and commotion I know well enough that, that means fighting.

I get up and hurry to put in my one and only contact in my eye that I have had for about two weeks know, yeah half blind man. I look out my tent again and yes I see fighting. Peter comes out of the tent and I follow him. I look and see about 70ft in front of me people are fighting! Ok but not like one or two people I’m seeing a hole crowd of people fighting! Yeah it’s like our cattle camp Vs this new cattle camp. People yelling and screaming, and for some reason I start laughing! Since I been over here when something bad happens I just laugh, I get it from the locals, I think it is a way we coup maybe. I see the fighting and I know this is real but I just laugh. The team does not even come out of the tent because they think I am joking from all my laughing.

 

But I finally convince them that this is real and all of the team come out of the tent and is watching the fighting erupt. Then the fighting moves from hand to hand to clubs and big sticks! The crowd of fighting people get clubs and other people pick of these huge sticks out of nowhere and they just start fight like crazy. It was like something off of a barbaric movie or Gladiator!

Cluak!...Cluak…Cluak…Cluak!

I hear yelling and screaming and the clipping of the clubs and sticks! I am laughing so much that the team doesn’t believe how serious this can get. Now mind you I’m still not scared or fearful for the team. But I think my laughing keeps the team calm in this situation because we are surrounded by Ak’s.  I know club and stick fighting happens all the time so I am just watching like wow! No biggie to me yet. So I am laughing! But we are all edge over the truck as we hide our bodies incase Ak-47 goes off which can happen at any time. Me and Justin Hendricks heads are picking out off of the tail of the truck and Justin Hendricks says “Holly crap their really mauling each other!” I laugh!

 

A kid we well know comes running in front of us screaming and crying. Then the crowd of fighting began to move toward the tent and us. Peter say lets move! I laugh and say ok!

We move but the fighting is all around us now! The men with guns kneel down kock their gun ready to firer if some one tries to strike them. It is pure ciaos! The fighting moves from our tent and into the field. We move back to our tent and the truck and the fighting then dies down. You see no biggie.

But the people still argue and soon move to the back of the camp where we can’t see. Then Bang!...

Ak goes off and people from the camp run our way! I see a little girl run with her hands covering her ears; her eyes are filled with fear! I think I saw this in slow motion. It’s funny what your mind remembers at times like these and they way it sets it.

 

I hear the shot and smile and say ok maybe we should go. You see this hole time I did not want to leave! Every time we come here with the word of God satan throws something at us or the camp to make us leave! I did not want to give in to his foul play! Everyone wanted to leave even Peter! He knows way better then I do. After the shot I knew it was time to leave.

But I hate leaving! First we can’t continue the work of God! Then we let satan get us, then we look like cowards! But we left once again. Satan is really after us out there, this the second time we have had to leave early. But God is more powerful because the Word is getting to the cattle camp regardless! So Satan keeps hitting us and God picks us back up each time over and over. Now I ask you who should be frustrated, I just rely on God but satan fails after hit after hit, as God just picks us back up. Now that is something to laugh about.

 

And we are going right back as soon as it calms down!

4Sho!

Hook up, to hook some one up. In urban terms or at least in Cleveland Hook up is a term you use when it is a need for you to talk to a girl and you ask your friend or maybe even your sister to talk to the person you like and set up a time you all can talk or a date so you both can get to know each other maybe become boyfriend and girlfriend. As we get older in the States we tend to frown upon the thought and terms of hook up. The women look down upon it and look at the men as if they are weak or too shy to talk to them for themselves. Therefore this causes the men to not even fathom the idea of hook up, but only left to talk bravely to them their selves or don’t talk at all. This why we States dwellers have talks of I’m kicking game, spitting game, and take pride in the thought that way are brave enough to talk to girls and they respond well to our character. This is all in the States.

 

But on Dinka planet I have come to find out the term hook up is widely use and practice here even as adults men and women. If a Dinka man likes a women and goes to talk to her straight, she will become very shy and not talk to him completely even running into the bush and hiding. So here on Dinka planet they use the hook up method to communicate even when it is established that the boy and girl are a couple. This leads me to my best friend Peter Maluwal.

 

One day: as we are in the cattle camps trying to plant seeds for Christ, on our free time as we are roaming around the camp Peter says to me “O what shall I do I need to talk to my girl but who will talk to her for me?” You see the hook up method is used in relationship not just to get to the relationship. On Dinka planet if you are truly a good friend of that person you are the one who is to talk to the girl for him. So I say “Ok Peter yeah I could try and talk to her.” This will be hard and awkward in Dinka terms because first, I don’t speak Dinka fluently so that means Peter will have to be there translating for us both, second at this time Peter is not suppose to be there so she won’t be shy and I can ask questions about him. But we are left work with what we have so I am the one. Mind you this is not my first time at playing the Dinka hook up method with Peter, so I have some experience.

 

It is night time and the team I are sitting around the tent just finishing our bowls of Raman. Peter says “Ok Mabor(me) will you come with me to visit Amat. I said sure and I also invited Justin Culp as well for reinforcements.

You see basically when it comes to playing hook up, you have to be a good time and entertainment of a conversation for the girls. Just like in the States except so much more is at stake here!

 

When I play the hook up man for my best friend Peter who I love and care about his future, I have Peter and Amat’s relationship in my hands, all depending on me rather they will get married or not. And marriage is very important for a Dinka man, and it is very hard! They can’t just fall in love and say lets get married like us State dwellers, no. They have to play the hook up game through the whole relationship and talk with the family to make sure they like him and then they have to save cows. This takes so long to get close to marriage, because a marriage on Dinka planet takes months.

So here I am, me and Justin talking for Peter. I really take this as a great honor! Peter told me “If I don’t get some one to talk to my girl then I don’t get married.” So I take this with great seriousness.

 

We sit down in the middle of cows and we are served milk. Then we wait. We wait for about an hour and half until Amat’s work is finally done, then her and her friends gather to talk to us. I had me and Justin make a list of what we could talk about so we won’t lose the interest. So we began and Peter translates are conversations and all is going well but then we reach the end are list fast! So then silence hits and Peter says “Ok keep going..” Ummm….ummmm Justin you have anything more to talk about man? Ummm… O Ok.

So Justin starts talking again and keeps the convo going. I think of more as he is talking. The girls laugh and it seems they are just happy to be talking to Kawagas. Which is a good thing for Peter I think.

 We talk late into the night and we all get tired and decide to end the night. As we walk back to our tent Justin and I are anxious to hear how we did on the Hook up game. We both ask

Peter how we did and to my surprise it was very nonchalant response from him, more of a “you did OK”. I really feel bad because I am Peters friend the one to do this hook up but I will always have the language blocking me. But Peter says “any talk is good now, it is OK, you know, No cultivate No crops.” What? I said. Peter replies “No cultivate No crops, if you don’t cultivate you get no crops, if you don’t talk you get no marriage.” That mad me feel better, any talk is good and I think they enjoyed themselves, but I think it is so funny, because I feel like I am back in elementary school again trying to hook up my friend with a girl. Funny!

 

We get back to the tents and we zip up to call it a night and Justin starts talking about how he was never good at that himself and can’t believe he is Africa now being used to do hook ups, and he can’t get a girl himself he says. Then he picks his head through our tent and says No cultivate, No crops! Me and Peter burst into laughter so loud! We laugh and laugh!

That’s the hook up in Dinka land, No cultivate, No crops!

LOL!

 

Take your own advice

“YO boys! We hitten new ground now. This is a spiritual battle and satan does not want to see us succeed in the glory of God. Now I’m going to tell you now that there will be disappointments, I see some coming already. For example those three guys who volunteered themselves as to be trained in God’s word, probably won’t be here when we come back. That’s how is out here, people say they will be here and then one day just get up and move. But we are going to have to stand firm and keep doing the work of God giving glory to Him, keep bringing the word to them no matter what!” My words before we left the cattle camp the first time, I found out I need to listen to my own advice…

 

We all came back to the cattle camp with such vigor and motivation ready to teach the word or God to these unreached people, happy to see our friends, and wrestling some with our Dinka boys. The cattle camp greeted us with such reception running to the car meeting us with their big beautiful smiles. Plus we were all excited that we finally got my best friend and Pastor/ translator Peter Maluwal!

The main man of the day. Peter has been wanting to go with us to cattle camp since we started, he

 even road all the way out to us in cattle camp in one day just to help us! But his job at the Baptist training Center prevents him from doing so. How we got him to come is another story.

 

Anyway, The first we had such a crowd a round our tent we just taught God’s word right then. It went so well! They responded pretty good and we all where on a high from being back and teaching that day.

 

The next day:

I piss facing the camp as I brush my teeth, the others sit in a circle by our tents. I suddenly hear Peter say “OOo! Magic!” I turn to look and I see an old man walking around with a big stick and beating ground as he circles the cows. The calmness of actions from the witch doctor surprised me in the fact of if Peter had not told me I would not even have notice it. But the cow the witch doctor was blessing was our cattle camp leader. That really hit me down. I felt like all we have been doing here is a waste and their just using us to see what they can get out of these white Americans.

I mean we have been teaching on only serve and worship God, so many Bible stories teaching the exact sin this leader is doing now. I was not the only one who felt this way either, we all got pretty bumped after seeing that and we had to teach in a few hours.

I told you I needed to listen to my own advice. Justin Culp was the one who encouraged us all to not get down, “We can’t expect them just to turn right around just because we come in teaching some Bible stories, it will take some time.” In which was right and I agreed with him on.

So we push our selves up and laid out the word of God to them. It turns out that all the stories we taught that day had to do with worshiping and serving God only again! We elaborated on it big time and told them you cannot serve both, but only God. Justin said he saw the leader putting his head down maybe in guilt, I don’t know, but they where all given what God’s law on says on that, they know and now it is up to them to act. We finished out that week with consistent teaching of God’s word and their responds seem blissful.

Please pray the word reaches their ears and heart and that they understand it.

Please pray for us that we able to teach them clearly that they understand and except it.

Pray that they except God and His laws in their heart and put it in their actions to depend on God only.

Thank you!